I am 48, I immigrated from Canada to the USA (1 year ago) for my corporate job. I have a family, dogs and guinea pigs. I have worked my whole life to get to where I am. And you know what, it’s not what you think it would be.
I have enough money, enough friends, enough food, all the enoughs. But it is sooo desperately unsatisfactory.
I want to do something totally different, I want to get away from my desk. I hate sitting here, pressing keys, all day, every single day. For what? What am I actually getting out of this?
A few for sures:
I need to make money to support myself and my family
I need to do something that gives back to my soul
I need to heal, and heal others
I need more air, and space to think, and just be
I have generalized anxiety disorder and have forever
I feel best when I am in nature, and with animals and plants
I feel the worst when I am in countless meetings
I am giving myself 5 years to figure this out. 5 years to truly find my path, the one that is meant for me, not just one that I feel I need to do to make things happen.
I started working at 12, and have been since then. Always working, never really for myself and for something that feels fully aligned with my morals and my heart.
I’ve done my time, now it’s time to figure out what makes me happy, what makes me a good friend to myself.
Epic.